Which is actually nothing new. It's probably bad for me. I do know it's entirely my fault, as is the amount of time I spend in bed when I could be doing productive things like looking for a job...
But none of that is, in fact, the point of this post. And in case anyone's wondering, most of my titles will probably not correlate to the subject matter of the posts specifically, so read it but be aware it won't necessarily be what you are expecting. Anyways, the point of this post is actually an update on how things are going for me because I feel like it's as good a time as any other to talk about my less-than-fascinating life.
First thing's first: I got my license. I got it Tuesday, which still feels to me like yesterday but is technically not because it's technically Thursday. Yeah, anyway, I passed my driving test and now have a paper license, no restrictions, telling me I can legally drive anyone anywhere at any time. It doesn't say that, but it doesn't have the cute little provisional license restrictions I narrowly avoided by waiting to get my permit 'til 2 days before my 18th birthday. Which means I can drive at any time of day or night in any registered vehicle and anyone I want can be in the car, regardless of their age and current license or lack thereof. Which is both exciting and weird.
Also, the show I'm stage managing is both an exciting thing that I'm hella looking forward to and also mildly afraid about, only because I keep screwing up every couple of rehearsals, and little things do surely add up in theatre. I've got to send several different emails for that and continue to be constantly vigilant in regards to my email. And I can't send emails late at night because I have to bcc my instructor/the director, and if she happens to see the time I sent things, she'd worry about me and I don't actually need her worrying because I do more than is necessary all by myself.
And then, in a third area of fascination, I have been exploring mental issues due to research for a term paper for my abnormal psych class. I understand that there is a certain "medical student" effect I must take into consideration, but for the part where I was already aware I had issues and was simply not entirely sure about what words beyond umbrella terms to use. But I know my own experiences, and having known already the general area of each problem, I have wandered my way unintentionally into learning more about myself by finding new words to learn about, and how they apply to me is fairly clear to me.
Also I am worried about my grades in Sociology because while I've yet to miss any huge due dates, there is not much in her grade book and I missed the last class due to my DMV appointment Tuesday, plus there was a tiny 1 pt thing due that is in the 20% weight of the grades I get so like...I'm mildly concerned about what I missed and what I have not read that I should have for that class.
And for another thing, I'm very much enjoying the show I'm working on, but I'm also thrilled tomorrow night's rehearsal was cancelled because now I have an opportunity to maybe see the festival of One-Act plays at my old high school because I really hella miss the students in the drama department there and I'd like to see them act in something, esp something I had no part in. I'm also like 98% sure when I see it I'll be sad I was no part of it, even though I couldn't have been involved at all. But hey, shit happens.
Last thing: I kind of had a thing with this guy and I ended it because of terrible reasons and I feel bad but I felt worse while in it, and now I have to return a few things and idk how because I haven't had the time to see him face-to-face in like, a month so like...what do I do? That question is not one I need an answer for as I'll figure it out eventually.
Anyways, this is it for thoughts. So perhaps now I'll be able to sleep. I'll let you know how it goes..
Night, darlings.